I'm meaning life-long goals, yearnings, things that you think God are showing you, yet they suddenly just up and leave you flat on your face.
I will admit, I am extremely excitable over things, maybe that is my main problem.
The second most discouraging thing I've experienced lately is the fact that I've been wanting to go to school for a while, everything looked like it was about to happen, then... nope. I try to pray through everything but it hasn't really given me much comfort lately. In fact I've been ridiculously depressed these last few weeks.
God's got me at a spot that is really low. No job offers or call backs, I'm barely getting by on things. The Mission is a great job, but it's just not cutting it financially. I'm fine and dandy, but dadgummit is it easy to fall back into the "woe is me" mentality.
I would love to say all of my joy comes from the Lord, but when you feel like things are happening after asking Him if it's the right thing, things build up and then it does a ninja spin kick to the knees.
Bleh, without failure you can't grow, but I want to freaking grow already.